Time

Wow, sometimes I can't believe that I've been back in Winnsboro for 6 months...its seems like just yesterday I was scrambling around trying to finish my last month of my senior year at Tech in the span of 3 days. I'm sitting here at the moment trying to wrap my brain around the fact that in the matter of months my whole world from the way I perceive myself to the way I conduct myself have changed all because of one person's decisions. I'm finding myself having to reconstruct a confidence that I've always had from the ground up and having to deal with the insecurities that come with that loss of confidence. I feel awkward and strange sometimes like the whole foundation of my life has been swept away. Not to get this confused with my foundation of faith in God but the foundation of which all my dreams and aspirations mirrored.

Kasey

Trying not to worry.

I'm seriously trying to rein in my worry right now, I worry about work, future, school, jobs, money, wedding, retarded fathers and more. I just can't seem to stop. Sometimes I feel like this huge wave of stress and worry is just going to swallow me up. The stress of not knowing what is going on or how things will work after the wedding is probably a main point for me. I'm so used to planning things out, knowing what is going to happen, where I will be and I don't know ANY of that! How is one supposed to function?! Right now it almost seems impossible, I'm getting tired of telling myself just take one day at a time because I want to know a plan of action. Patience as you can tell is not one of my virtues.