Life As I Know It.

My heart bleeds,
every beat hurting more than the last.

You held it in the palm of your hand,
dropping it at your feet.

Your eyes are so cold,
where have you gone?

You said you would always be there,
where are you now?

You said you would always love me,
only to find out that love has conditions.

I scream for you,
you don't turn around.

I need you,
you don't want me.

My heart bleeds,
every beat hurting more than the last.

Kasey

You.

Do I know you?
No, I do not know you.

Do I trust you?
No, I do not trust you.

Are you hurting me?
Yes, you are hurting me.

Are you being selfish?
Yes, you are being selfish.

Are you wanted?
Yes, you are wanted.

Can you be forgiven?
Yes, you can be forgiven.

Are you Loved?
Yes, you are desperately loved.

Love,
Kasey

The Flu.

Cough, Cough, gag, cough. Swallow pill, cough, cough. Drink cough syrup, cough, gag, retch. Sniffle, cough, sniffle, blow. Clear throat, cough, sniffle, blow. Lay down, cough, cough, choke. Run to bathroom, gag, gag, cough, heave. Rinse face, blow, blow, cry.

By Kasey Asbill

Descent into madness, or a slight bout of the flu

*Cough Cough Cough*, What in the name? Did I open an envelope with anthrax, perhaps zee Germans are back with the whole mustard gas thing, or is it the massive amount of smoking I did in my youth(Insert joke here, I've only had one cigar in my life, honest)? Oh no, nothing so fun and exciting as that, just the run of the mill sinus infection, or at least for me, Kasey has something much darker and more sinister or so I've been told. Coming of the tail of a momentous occasion, still not quite sure what it was memory kinda comes and goes, it did involve "when stars go blue", anyway right afterwards I lapsed into a semi-coma all Saturday while coming in and out of speeches on Ted.com (check it out!!!) and then Saturday night/Sunday morning I died............what you want more? I was DEAD, or at least very close, but Kasey nursed me back to health, and by nursed I mean told me to stop faking it; however despite her best efforts I survived and am now among the living once again. (Fully living not that creepy zombie state that Kasey is currently in) I would fill you in on Kasey's state, but I always get a kick out of her post so she can tell everyone the full story. Bye for now!

PS- Kasey takes great care of me when I'm sick and when she is sick I want to cry, just so everyone knows I'm a real softy and not some mean guy.

Our Engagement!

As I'm sure alot of you have already figured out, Matthew and I are finally engaged! Not that most of you couldn't already see this coming anyways.

We got engaged on Friday, April 3rd. And boy was it an interesting day. Friday turned out to be one hectic sort of day. I woke up at 8:30 thinking that I was going to miss my class at 9am. (I don't have a class at 9am on Friday) I was getting my morning confused with my Monday, Wednesday mornings in which I have piano at 9 am. The funny thing is that I knew I didn't have my piano class but for some reason I thought my 10 am class started at 9 am. So I rush out the camper and zoomed to campus.

My zooming was promptly crushed by a portly old fellow on a Police Motorcycle. Where upon, he asked me if there was an emergency? I replied no, but that I was trying to get to my class on time. He said, ok, and took my driver's license. Within 5 minutes I was pulling away with a ticket for $190 and a suggestion to take defensive driving. It didn't hit me until I pulled into the church parking lot that I was an entire hour early for my 10 o'clock class. (Did I feel stupid?...YES!)

Now most of you might not know it but Friday night was supposed to be a "Girls Night," with Jessica, Katie, Carolyn and me. I was under the impression that we were having out usual girls night out, dressing up, going to eat, and maybe bowling. But no...Matthew called Jessica because of course my phone doesn't work (go figure) and tells her he sprained his ankle again! We need to go pick him up and he is at memorial circle.

Kasey's Reaction: "WHAT?! I bet he was doing something stupid again like trying to kick a door closed! Geez, I'm really sorry guys that this is ruining our girls night.

So we get in the car in short dresses and heels and rush over to Memorial Circle on campus to rescue my somewhat "clumsy" boyfriend. Or so I thought...

Upon arriving at Memorial Circle I can somewhat see Matthew as we walk up the sidewalk and my first thing to say is "he sure doesn't look very hurt!" The closer we get I realize that he is all dressed up. It then starts dawning on me that "Oh my goodness he might propose!" When we finally get to the entrance of the circle Matthew cues Thomas who was crouching behind the wall and our first song to ever dance to came on, "When the Stars Go Blue."

Matthew and I are standing in the middle of the circle now, where he tells me he loves me, and proceeds to get down on his knee. I immediately start tearing up and can barely see him by the time he asks me to marry him, where upon I answer yes by nodding my head due to the fact that I could barely speak for fear of bawling. We then kissed and had lots of pictures taken!

It was a wonderful and magical night! My ring is beautiful thanks to my fiancee who knows me well and I can't wait until I can post my pictures up on here! I won't be able to until probably next week due to the fact that I have the flu right now and also that I'm heading to Winnsboro today.

I love you all and I just wanted to thank my girlfriends, Jess, Katie, and Caroyln for making that such a special night for me! Thomas thanks for helping Matthew out and being there for him, you truly are a wondeful friend to the both of us. You 4 are the best friends we could ever ask for!

Love,
Kasey

Reading, Writing, and Blogging?

Well, its nice to see that I have an adoring public. In case you haven't already figured it out, this is Matthew staging a Coup and taking control of the blog waves once more. Mwahahahaha. Just to let everyone in on my "high flying" lifestyle upon which I indulge, I am now a management major in the Rawls College of Business and I am still slated to graduate in May of 2010, so to all my listeners (or are they readers, yeah I think readers, but I digress) mark off that date! Just kidding if you don't want to come no skin off my back(man that is a heinous saying, skin off of back, that just weird,oops wandering again...). Anyway on a serious note, just to let everyone know this is by far my least favorite semester at Tech. I say this for multiple reasons, but mainly due to the fact that I jut can't seem to get in gear, none of my classes excite me and I am not a person who can sit through something I'm not interested in and do well, also I'm sure that there is a certain amount of trepidation in my impending lack of friends (mainly Kasey, Jess, and Robert) to keep my company(WAIT, whats that Kasey's leaving, OH NO the heavens have rend asunder and locust populate the land and up is down, down is up, dogs living harmony with cats, cats living in harmony with anyone.....what shall I do?...but I digress) however I still have Katie and Thomas, or as they shall henceforth be known as ThomKat (pronounced Tomcat) and my books. Speaking of books, and this might be why I never get anything done, I am currently reading...a lot, I don't want to bore anyone with my selections (I say this because Kasey rolls her eyes every time I read off a title) so if your curious just ask in the comment section. On a summery note, I will be here over the summer working and taking summer classes and the best part is two of them are history courses, including History of the Italian Mafia taught by my favorite professor. So that about wraps up my part of the blog, if you wish to know more just FB me or leave me a comment. Bye for now.

Oh and by the way I think that Kelly and Casey Bryan need a facebook account, just a thought...