Hair or No Hair...

That is definitely the question I keep asking myself when I start thinking about all the money and time it takes to put a wedding together. Despite having a couple of the big things set, I've been trying to keep myself from having a panic attack when I think about Mom, Matthew, Linda and I trying to pay for this wedding. I keep having to remind myself that already we have saved a HUGE amount in not having to pay for the reception, rehearsal and ceremony sites! (whew!)

ALSO...we are saving by using tables from Matthew's church and my church (for free!) The big prices are photography which we already have booked, flowers and decorations, wedding gifts, music (which we have decided against the string quartet), Dress and Jewelry and food for both rehearsal and reception. I know I'm probably forgetting about something else...but that's shows you how fried my wires are right now! OH DUH the cakes! How could I forget those whopping price tags!

Just an update for those of you who care...Matthew comes in this Saturday and we have an appointment with the cake lady on Wednesday. (We're taste testing and hopefully designing) Then on Thursday we are hoping to get an appointment with a florist in Quitman. (keep your fingers crossed!)

So that is my life at this point not leaving out the fact that we now are the proud owners of 4 precious kittens! (no pictures yet...have to download them!)

Love,
Kasey

Missing Matthew..

Wow, ok so today is just one of those days that I really miss Matthew! And yes people I realize I just saw him this weekend and will get to see him on Saturday for a whole week but sometimes you just miss having your friend by your side. I miss having him crack jokes that make me roll my eyes and I even miss him purposefully trying to get on my nerves (in a funny way) because he likes to see me flustered. I miss everything about him and wish that May would hurry up and get here!

On a happier note, this is my last week to teach my GED classes, not that they have been bad but I will save a lot of gas not having to travel to Mt. Pleasant two days a week.

Also on an even more exciting note I was finally able to buy part of my bridesmaid's gifts and have a very good idea for what I'm going to give for guest favors! (Matthew, Kelly, Casey, Mom, Jess, Katie, Audra, Kadie..etc...sorry guys but I'll probably need your help) :)

Trying to Stay Positive,
Kasey

Wedding Planning

Planning a Wedding, not just any wedding but my own still seems to throw me for a loop. It seems crazy that after almost four years of dating Matthew and I are FINALLY getting to officially plan our wedding without rolling of eyes and sighs of un-understanding people. (Yes we realize, we're unique)

Prior to the beginning of the hard core planning I really didn't think that there was that much to really do...boy was I wrong. Although I have to admit that some of the hardest parts of the wedding planning are already coming together.

• Wedding Dress is ordered.
• Venue is set. (Both Reception and Ceremony)
• Photography is set. (Thanks to Kara Mercer)
• Music has been decided.
• Invitations are decided on.

Ok so maybe I'm being a little too optimistic...I still have a lot to do. I've been trying to start buying my Bridesmaid's gifts which I've already decided on. I now just have to buy and order them. (which is hard to do when you are spending half your paycheck on gas)

Still to do:

• Find a Florist
• Find Bridesmaid's dresses
• Find a Veil (I know what I want it to look like, finding it is the problem)
• Find a Caterer
• Rent chairs for ceremony and tables for reception.
• Wedding Cakes (know what I want just have to find someone to make it!)

...and the list goes on and on...what I wouldn't do to still be living in the same town as my Maid of Honor and 3 of my bridesmaids again! I miss being able to run things by them for their help and opinion.

A very busy but not stressed Bride-to-be :)

Working For Money

Wow so I am officially working two jobs now and never realized just how tiring it can be. The jobs themselves are great and aren't stressful or hard but at the end of the week I'm always feeling rather drained. I really enjoy the work I do at the First National Bank here in Winnsboro and would have to say that is my favorite of the two jobs, but I also really enjoy seeing my students at the Adult Education Center find confidence in everyday skills. I think the downfall for the GED classes is that I have to get up extra early in order to drive the 35 to 40 minutes to Mt. Pleasant on Monday and Wednesday. :) I never have been good at getting up early.

Despite now having been working two jobs for 2 weeks I still haven't received my first pay check which I'm trying not to become discouraged about. It amazes me how quickly money rushes out of your pocket when you're paying for your own gas, food, and other necessities.

On a different note I'm getting to go to Lubbock for the weekend! I'm so very excited to give Matthew a HUGE hug! I've really been missing him and it doesn't seem to get easier. So YAY for free airplane tickets and a day off on Monday!

:) Keep this working girl in your prayers!

Whole New World

Wow, who would have ever imagined me teaching a class?! I must say that it is interesting but difficult due to the fact that I am used to the minds of college students and professors. I am teaching an adult GED class on Monday and Wednesday for the next 4 to 5 weeks. Its really difficult because I keep finding myself expecting too much from my students and asking them to do things above their level. I then feel like a complete idiot trying to explain things that I just take for granted. I never really did realize how much my fantastic high school education and my higher education from Texas Tech meant to me until I found myself trying to explain to adults that are older than me what a fragment is...which by the way you can't do before you explain what a subject and verb are. (Found that one out the hard way)

I am starting to appreciate even my basic skills in Math, Science, Social Studies and Reading. I mean you hear about people who can't read or write but it doesn't fully hit you until you are faced with trying to teach them to read and write. Teaching here has made me determined to do research on learning styles and programs that will make it easier on my students. :)

A very nervous and unsure Ms. Kasey Asbill.

Life As I Know It.

My heart bleeds,
every beat hurting more than the last.

You held it in the palm of your hand,
dropping it at your feet.

Your eyes are so cold,
where have you gone?

You said you would always be there,
where are you now?

You said you would always love me,
only to find out that love has conditions.

I scream for you,
you don't turn around.

I need you,
you don't want me.

My heart bleeds,
every beat hurting more than the last.

Kasey

You.

Do I know you?
No, I do not know you.

Do I trust you?
No, I do not trust you.

Are you hurting me?
Yes, you are hurting me.

Are you being selfish?
Yes, you are being selfish.

Are you wanted?
Yes, you are wanted.

Can you be forgiven?
Yes, you can be forgiven.

Are you Loved?
Yes, you are desperately loved.

Love,
Kasey