True Friends

I just want to say that when you find those friends that love you no matter what, who will forgive you even when you've been anything but nice, and have the guts to tell you to shutup or to think about both sides, you've found something special. I have found that in my two best friends Jess and Katie and I just want to say thank you to you guys for being who you are and being willing to deal with my not always easy to deal with personality :). You guys are great and I love you!

Love,
Kasey

Getting a TV

Well everybody, Matthew and I have finally given in and are going to get a TV for my room at the house. Granted it will not be as big as the one we were hoping for but it will be decent and big enough to play xbox on. We had planned on getting it right before we were married but think that now is a very good time to get it. If you have any suggestions on the type we should get please let us know.

Kasey

Feeling Accomplished!

Well guys I have finally finished my parasitology notebook and taken my Art Appreciation test and am finally feeling like I've accomplished something! My art test went well and I feel that I did at least "Grade A" studying. As for my parasitology notebook I stayed up until around 1:30 am working on it in order to get it done for today. I then woke up at 7am this morning and worked another hour and 20 minutes to finish last minute details after not falling asleep until around 2:00 am. So I'm tired today but happy I'm done with my homework.

On top of my school work I have to say that I was able to clean my room very nicely! When you're always going so fast you forget how nice it is to have a clean room.

As for Matthew he has his second interview today at 2:30 with the Edward Jones Company. We are very excited about it and are praying that he gets this very sought after internship this summer in St. Louis, Missouri. And I must say that he looks very handsome in his new suit with his "power colored" shirst and ties. I'll try and get a picture for you guys when he gets ready to leave.

I know this blog is kind of lacking my normally blog personality but for reasons I truly don't know I'm feeling a little flat today. This past week has been pretty stressful with us putting the 48th Street House on the market and having to really get down and clean the house on top of school and work. But I do feel accomplished in all that has gotten done this week if not just a little tired from it all.

Love you all,
Kasey

Waiting For May 9th!

FREEDOM!!! I can see it!

To Change or Not to Change

That truly is the question. When do we decide that changing is what we need to do and when do we sit tight and hold on to what we are?! Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel unhappy with yourself and how you are? And how do you know if its you truly being unhappy with yourself or if it's just the world telling you that you shouldn't be the way you are and you being unhappy because of all the pressure?

I hate admitting I have qualities about myself that I need to change, just like I hate admitting I'm wrong. I also hate being embarrassed and feel that way when someone points out one of my many flaws. I have trouble with taking advice from people about my flaws and tend to get angry. As most of my family and friends know, I am typically a rather confident person, but not this week, this week is one of those weeks in which my confidence has taken a vacation and I'm struggling to be happy with myself. This is one of those weeks in which I've been getting angry often and most of the time at the people I love the most. This is one of those weeks in which I can't let things go, especially offered help which is received as critizism when it was not meant to be. Facing your flaws I've found is not easy to swallow and not something I'm very good at. This is one of those weeks I think I need to learn a little humility. This week I feel more than ever I need to be closer to God.

I feel like this week God could not have gotten my attention any better than if he had hit me upside the head with a hammer.

Do Nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippians 2:3-4

Your prayers would be very welcome.

Thoughtfully,
Kasey Asbill

Wondering How People Do It?!

Do you ever see someone you know or just some random person and just wonder, "How do they do it?!," "How do they live like that?" I've been finding myself doing that alot lately. I find myself thinking that they could make their life so much more simple, "if only" they would do this, or "if only" they would do that. Then I start thinking, who am I to tell them that their way of doing things is not very effective. But even still it bugs the heck out of me to watch them using a less effective way of doing things (I'm trying not to let it bother me too much, gets hard sometimes. In which I try to remember some of the advice I listed below.) Here are a few of the things I would have advised others to try in the past week: (You'd be surprise at the interesting convos I hear while working out and working.)

• Say what you really mean, stop trying to make people guess what you really mean. Life can be so much more simple if you just say what you want instead of beating around the bush and expecting people to get what you truly mean by saying things such as "I want to if you want to," or "only if you want to," or "yeah sure that's OK (when its not really)." Being so coy in responses only wastes breathe and time in which you could be doing what you truly want to be doing. It also cuts down on misunderstandings and fights that result from those misunderstandings. And when a misunderstanding occurs stop trying to hide when you're upset by saying "No I fine (obviously not)," this only wastes time in which you can be fixing the misunderstanding and getting back to your normally happy selves.
• Try taking a deep breath every once in awhile. Calm those nerves and take a step back and really look at the situation. Is what you're sitting there freaking out about really that big a deal?! Is is life altering? If this freak-out involves another person ask yourself, "Is this a me-problem?" A me-problem is a problem in which you have an issue with someone or a decision or action of someone else in which you really don't have a say in but make a big deal about anyways. First off, you have no control over the other person's actions or what they want to do, so give it up. If that person is 18 years or older they can make their own decision and choices, socially, criminally, sexually, monetarily and personally. Don't waste your time and your peace of mind over something and someone you don't have control over. (Thats why I'm blogging about this instead of driving myself nuts trying to make them change their ways.)
• Try being confident in yourself. Try something new and out of your comfort zone once in awhile. Most of the time you will find yourself pleasantly surprised. So let loose and stop worrying so much about embarrassing yourself so much. Besides most people don't see you the way in which you see yourself. You are and always will be your hardest critic. When it comes to trying new things, how can you know if you like it or not if your not willing to give it your all but hold back and purposefully sabotage yourself by not really trying. Most people will think more critically of you for not really trying then if you truly tried and messed up. Nobody likes a quiter. When it comes to yourself and your own body image try asking yourself, "How often do I really realize what I'm upset about on other people." Chances are you aren't nearlly as critical of others as you are of yourself.

I guess you could somewhat call this a venting blog, and I really try not to do that too often. I just felt that if even one person got something from this then it would be worth it. I just hate seeing people stress themselves over issues like what are listed above because it can make life so much harder.

Love,

Kasey

Random Pictures

Valentine's Converse and Barne's and Noble gift card given to me by Matthew!

Matthew dressing nice for work! He looks so handsome!




A muddy Alex and her Squirrel squeaky toy!

My new converse! I love them!




Alex and Archer's toy before it's demise!

She's so cute!