To Change or Not to Change

That truly is the question. When do we decide that changing is what we need to do and when do we sit tight and hold on to what we are?! Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel unhappy with yourself and how you are? And how do you know if its you truly being unhappy with yourself or if it's just the world telling you that you shouldn't be the way you are and you being unhappy because of all the pressure?

I hate admitting I have qualities about myself that I need to change, just like I hate admitting I'm wrong. I also hate being embarrassed and feel that way when someone points out one of my many flaws. I have trouble with taking advice from people about my flaws and tend to get angry. As most of my family and friends know, I am typically a rather confident person, but not this week, this week is one of those weeks in which my confidence has taken a vacation and I'm struggling to be happy with myself. This is one of those weeks in which I've been getting angry often and most of the time at the people I love the most. This is one of those weeks in which I can't let things go, especially offered help which is received as critizism when it was not meant to be. Facing your flaws I've found is not easy to swallow and not something I'm very good at. This is one of those weeks I think I need to learn a little humility. This week I feel more than ever I need to be closer to God.

I feel like this week God could not have gotten my attention any better than if he had hit me upside the head with a hammer.

Do Nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippians 2:3-4

Your prayers would be very welcome.

Thoughtfully,
Kasey Asbill